I See You

Little one with brown eyes, we met today.

Little one with the brown eyes, I know the world seems so scary now. There are so many faces you’ve never met and the lights are just too bright. People are shouting things you do not understand. “What does that mean?” and” Who are they? “"There is loud beeping, noisy machines and there is something in my mouth helping me breathe. Mama told me to be wary of strangers so trusting you is hard, I hear you when you talk to me… “We mean you no harm. “We are only here to help” .There is so much commotion surrounding me and all I want is mom and dad.

Little one, your mom and dad love you more than life itself. They are in another room waiting. They are waiting for news. Will you be ok? Will you come home today? What is happening? They are scared too, but know how much they love you.; know how strong they are for you in the midst of chaos. Their prayers fill the hallway; their faith lifted high. They are waiting on a miracle. They are waiting for you.

Meanwhile, in your room, the world is very busy. All kinds of people are here for you. They are working together to save you. There are hands compressing your little heart, there are medicines being given to keep you with us; there are those watching your vital signs ever so keenly as to not miss a single beat. We are fighting hard alongside you, but even though our efforts are strong, your little body is just too sick.

“Mom and dad are here now, tears run down their faces, and mama’s hand is holding mine tight. Dad is strong, he holds me and mom. They kiss my face and hold me close. My breathing is different now, but i’m not scared anymore. I feel happy; I feel peace. As I leave the world I once knew as home, I tell mom and dad how I love them. I will see them both very soon. “

Little one with the brown eyes, we met today.

In the midst of the commotion, my eyes landed on yours and I saw you. You had perfectly round brown eyes; beautiful. I Imagined your life away from here. I invisioned you as the child you were. You were full of life, you loved to laugh and play. You loved your mom and dad and they gave you the world. You were more than your diagnosis and your body fought so hard to stay. I admire your strength little one and I thank you. Thank you for allowing us to fight with you. I thank you for the light you were in this world. Thank you for reminding me to appreciate every moment and hug those I love tight. Life is precious; Always I’ll remember your life and those perfect brown eyes.