And Then She was 6

Time is merciless. We naively believe we have so much of it ; that it‘ s a never ending resource. Oh, the lies we tell ourselves. We say we always have another day; some other time to get to it, but the reality is the moments we push back till later become lost until we’re suddenly desperate to hold those moments again.

July 1, 2016 I held Isabella in my arms for the very first time. She was a perfect fluffy 7 pounds of baby. I breathed her in memorizing her very scent. Her arrival into this world changed very part of me. She challenges me, she shows me every day I need to slow down and take each moment in. She is joy embodied, the peace maker in our household, She is spice and love and all the best parts of me.

I sit here and reflect on the last 6 years of her life. Did I do the very best by her at all times, does she know how much I adore her? Will she ever fathom how much she is my heart walking outside of my body. I pray I can be what she needs me to be; that I equip her for the world ahead. My love, my heart. You are everything to me. MY sweet girl, i wish you the happiest of birthdays today.

This year, you want all things Rainbow High. You wanted a beach trip to Hawaii…we compromised with Hilton Head. I just laid out all of your gifts in your room and I’m pretty sure I am more excited than you for you to wake and see them all. We cannot wait to celebrate you all weekend sweet love.

My dear, your mama knows she loses patience at times and I can only hope you and your brothers never take it personally. I apologize for my faults, but i need you to know I love you beyond my own existence.

Can’t wait to hug and kiss you in the morning.

July 1, 2022.

MAK